Tania Ngatai

Born in Waitara, New Zealand on 22 January 1965
Passed away in New Plymouth, New Zealand on 24 January 2015
Aged 50 years
Beautiful, Kind, Loving mother of Rana, Edan & Chris. Dearly loved daughter of Felix and Marie. Loved and cherished sister of Richard. Loved by dear friends Mark and Taylor. Loved friend to Corinne and Robyn, and beloved teenage love to Donald. Gorgeous lovely Tania, May you rest peacefully beautiful kind soul, forever loved and always treasured by her family and friends. May you be at Peace. We will always remember you and our times together. A celebration of Tania’s life will be held at ... Read more

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Its been 3 years today that you left us & not a day goes by when I dont think about you & wonder what'd be like if you were still here with me, what things we could have done together, all those many more memories I wanted with you.. I miss you so much, I miss you more than I could ever describe, everything about you. I love you so much Mum, I will always cherish every single moment we spent together and always remember everything you taught me. Love you xoxo
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
Thank you for everything mum, not a day goes by when I'm not grateful to have even had you.. My heart is at pain all the time without you.. I feel so alone and lost sometimes.. I wonder why you left and wish you'd just stayed to be here with me.. no one really understands how it feels to have a mum who took her own life.. no one sees how much it truly hurts to be without you.. to be without anyone to be here and hug me and tell me life is OK... Your life left a toll and a huge hole.. I love & miss you so bad mum.
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
Spring is in bloom, everything is flourishing but with beauty there is sadness as you are still not near.. Mark is looking after me like you knew he would as Ive had to distance myself from the family after being assaulted by Chris & Kui; I guess you were always right about them, I can't believe I defended them against you.. you weren't crazy, you were just sick of no one listening... I should have always trusted you! It should have been You & I vs the world. Love you xo
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
My beautiful mother! I hope wherever you have gone you know that my love for you will never end! Mark bought me heaps of Sunflowers to grow for your headstone since we know they were your favourite, we're starting a garden inspired by you and your organic nature! I love you so much mum, I wish you knew all the good things you have brought into my life & all the ways you've inspired me. Thinking of you always
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
Thinking of you like always, Missing you like mad! Wish we could chat like old times, I miss your warm embrace!
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
To my dearest mother and true bestfriend; I hope where ever you are you are finally at peace and can be free from all the suffering and pain of this world SUNFLOWER I miss you more than words could ever describe but also understand what this world & it's people have done to your spirit.. not a day passes where your not on my mind, till we meet again
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
Thinking about you aways Mum...You were a true kind soul, someone I am proud to have known. Your compassion and empathy was amongst the gods and now its gone the World and the Humans on it seem held in shadows. You were a true comforting sun, warming and nurturing. Not a day goes by when your not somewhere in my mind... I miss you so badly it hurts. I will always Love you - Till Infinity xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
Happy New Year Mum ♡ It's two days away from your birthday and I still miss you just as much If not more! I missed you at Christmas, Nothing was the same without you.. I wake up thinking about you and fall asleep wondering if I'll ever see you again.. I go to parties and look around hoping to see your face but all I see is people who couldn't ever understand Our bond and love.. this life is so heavy without you in it Mummy Dearest.. I love you so much xxx
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
I know wherever you are, you're watchin us and I don't know what to say except I'm sorry things are turning out this way! My intentions were to do what I thought you would want but my voice has been wasted on death ears this whole year... I feel I've been cut out of your life and home has been ripped out from underneath me; It's breaking my heart cause I know you would have wanted us all to work together
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai
Most days I wish it was Him....
Not You.
Rana Searle gave a flower for Tania Ngatai