Ronald (Ronnie) Lock

Born on 22 June 1954
Passed away on 27 December 2016
Aged 62 years
Eva turned 4 and little Chloe 1! We love and miss you so much. We live on for you. My two girls who will love and always know about you ❤ Your granddaughters who love you and will always know about you. We speak of you all the time. We love and miss you always.
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Hi Ronnie,
Another Wedding anniversary for you and Vicki, I hope you are both remembering all the wonderful times you spent together.
Deb gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Hi Dad,
The 27 always stands out more days than others, but the sadness is always the same.
I hope one day we find out that we are the ones that are missing out and you’re having the time of your life go there x
Michelle Lock gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Hi Ronnie I hope you are rested and all strong again. Footy season again.
I know how much you love your footy but Parra has been a total embarrassment.
This quote below is so true from all of us to you and also Dad

Their Love Leaves an Indelible Imprint
By Leo Buscaglia

“I know for certain
that we never lose the people we love,
even to death.
They continue to participate in every act,
thought and decision we make.
Their love leaves an indelible imprint
in our memories.
We find comfort in knowing
that our lives have been enriched
by having shared their love.”

Deb gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Another Anniversary Vicki and Ronnie sending love to you both. x
Deb gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Hi dad, I'm sorry I haven't written to you in so long. It's not because I haven't been thinking about you. You are in my thoughts every single day.

I had my little boy. He has your name as his middle name. It breaks my heart that you will never meet him. You would love him so much. He has so much personality. He is always smiling and laughing. I picture you talking to him and playing with him. You were the best pop in the world. Sienna and Eva were so lucky to have you.

I have felt so many mixed emotions lately. I shut all my feelings out while pregnant. It's awful but I wouldn't look at any photos of you.. as soon as I thought of you sick I'd just block it out and stop my mind from replaying images of you over and over in my head. How would it be possible to be excited for new life when my heart had been ripped out? Part of me just jad to block it all out so that I could enjoy my pregnancy and this precious beautiful newborn baby.
In your last days I told myself I had no regrets but my gosh I do. I look back and I was just living my life as normal. Going to work and seeing friends. I was picking up shifts at work and going to work drinks a week before you passed. What was I thinking?! I was obviously in complete denial as I can say I never thought you would lose your battle. I honestly thought you'd make it. How blind I must have been. If ai could go back in time I'd go with you to your appointments, be with you everyday. I took our time together for granted.
I wish I could tell you how much I love you over and over. As a teenager growing up I always found it difficult to say I love you. Not like Rachel who would yell out 5 times before going to sleep each night. I foundit easy saying it to mum but I think you never felt as at ease saying it to us kids. My god if I could go back I'd shout it from the roof tops. I hope you know just how much I did and do love you.
I wish I could go back and talk alone with you in those final hours. Mum asked if we wanted to and I said no. I wish I did talk to you. Hopefully you knew how much I love and appreciated you.
My biggest regret is going over after I had a vomiting bug. What was I thinking. Obviously I didn't think I was contagious anymore. Then mum and Rachel got sick and then you!! I have never felt so awful in all my life. To this day I still think maybe it's all my fault. You ended up so skinny and malnourished... maybe that sent you downhill. The drug was working and then you just got so sick and skinny. Words can't explain the guilt I feel.
The self protection mode of not letting myself think or feel has gone. I feel heartbroken and think of you constantly. I replay moments in thr hospital over and over in my head. You struggling for each breath will never leave me. I remember thinking grieving for your loss would be less painful than watching you suffer. Each hospital visit I felt sick. My stomach was in knots. It was unbearable. And then you took your breath and that was just as unbearable. What I would give to hold your hand. Kiss you
Hug you.
I dream about you often. Some good and some not so good. I hope you continue to visit me in my dreams. I never want to wake up from the good dreams.
I have been watching the ice skating and one of the couples skated to With or without you by U2. I like to think it was a little sign from you.
I'm heartbroken dad, but I keep going for the 2 beautiful grandkids you have, Sienna and Hudson, and the rest of our amazing and beautiful family.
I love you dad.
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Becky gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
One year today.
The year has passed by and seems a blur, so much has happened but I know you already know this as you are still here just not in the form we want you in. It was our first Christmas without you too and your personality and presence is so very missed, especially knowing how much enjoyment you would have with the family.

We spent the day by the water and it was a perfect setting to reminisce about you, everyone in the family was there, the sun was shining and the boats going by, the only thing making it incomplete was not having you there in person.

Life just doesn’t feel the same, everyone is still getting by because we have to and you would want that, but there is a part of everyone that’s missing.

I think of you every single day, miss you every second and will love you eternally xo
Michelle Lock gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
11 months today, it has gone so fast and simultaneously feels all too long since I saw you. I like to trick myself into thinking you are on a long holiday but reality is painfully real.
Though most days I am excellent at hiding my feelings, probably a trait I inherited from you, always keeping things to yourself... But I miss you more than you could ever know.

❤️ Love you Dad xx
Michelle Lock gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Deb gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Deb gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock